I am doing better than my Wednesday meltdown might have led one to believe. In large part, this is due to this incredibly supportive, great community. Thanks to everyone who offered support and encouragement; t was heartwarming to see how many of you commented. I greatly appreciated the suggestions about how to deal with my fears. I had mentioned doing Kait Nolan’s test mile; Lauralynn Elliot’s advice to just breathe and let what comes to the mind and fingers come, and Ruth Nestvold’s suggestion to have conversations with myself were very helpful.
I have been writing at least 500 words a day Thursday through today. At first it was stream of consciousness: fears, doubts, anger. Slowly these writings turned to hope as I looked into what matters to me enough to write about it. The first thought that hit me is little lost girls who conform to fit in, to get along, then slowly find their voices. Hmm, I’ve not written anything like that. Another thought is the rocky road to love and acceptance trod by those who didn’t have supportive families at birth. I feel as though things may be coming back to me, and oddly enough, new things too.
So for my goals:
Writing: I’ve rediscovered the water at the bottom of the well. I don’t want to pump it dry, so I am continuing the test mile, nurturing some of the thoughts, but not worrying if all I write is morning pages.
I finally replied to comments on last Wednesday’s post; I want to make my way back to the week-ago comments, but it may take me a while 😦
I did make some comments on other blogs. Although I am busy, I do miss the accountability of being a sponsor.
I am slowly working on the new domain, and will thank below the brave souls who have actually followed me on the duct-tape covered construction site.
Packing: Saints in heaven, no one needs to own over 10,000 pounds of books–who did I think I was–the British Library?? My husband is becoming quite the ebay expert; luckily he hasn’t been able to list the dogs (or me) on auction.
Planning: I am the planning fool. I have posterboard calendars, moving checklists, lists of what needs to be done at the current day job, at the old house, at the new house (which I don’t have yet), and the new day job. I am Organization, hear me roar!
Social: I’ve been doing somewhat better with friends, somewhat worse with family. I will work harder on this goal. Date night was a lot of fun, especially to go someplace without packing peanuts as part of the decor!
Exercise: I’ve been losing a bit more weight. I seem to have gotten my walking pneumonia again, so I don’t feel like eating. I’ve lost two pounds since the start of the round, woohoo! I am walking up the stairs, and counting steps I walk.
And, penultimately, I would like to thank those who have followed my blog since the beginning of the year:
Missy Biozarre is a young adult fantasy/science fiction writer, who blogs at Missy Biozarre, (following Leavekeeping).
Eden, of Many Worlds, Many Minds is a fellow ROWer, author of speculative fiction and erotica, and is following Lapidary Prose.
And the following brave souls have followed me on Elizabeth Anne Mitchell. I appreciate your believing in me!
Coral Russell, author of Amador Lockdown, posts book reviews and other thoughts on writing at Alchemy of Scrawl.
Jennifer M. Eaton, author of Hidden in Plain Sight, writes about the lessons she has learned about writing.
Raelyn Barclay writes about Tarot cards and their use in writing; other writing lessons, and book reviews.
As always please go encourage all the other ROWers here.