The past few weeks that I have been without a home computer that worked for more than ten-fifteen minutes at a time have been very informative. In light of what I have learned, I am going to revisit my goals. I learned a lot about myself, not all of it good.
What I have learned: When I got the new day job, I was so relieved to be leaving the old day job that I tried to be Superemployee. Bad idea. The past few weeks I found myself eating lunch at my desk, never getting up to walk around outside in spite of the glorious weather, constantly on the go. I never stopped until I collapsed in the evenings like someone spiked my food with sedatives. Not taking care of myself caught up with me when I was making the bed a week ago and hit my leg on the metal bedframe. I fractured a bone, and now sport a very attractive walking boot; luckily it is black and goes with all my new professional attire.
I essentially dropped out of sight, although I did manage to meet Eden for a lovely concert at the Troy Music Hall last Sunday.
Right after my sons came home, my mother-in-law’s condo sold, so the fresh influx of stuff that was used for staging there descended on us. I am drowning in furniture, knick-knacks, paint chips, and housework. I read Lynette’s check-in this morning, and recognized myself in her description of her mad life.
My only goal, perhaps for the rest of the round, is to connect. I have not responded to comments, I have not posted check-ins. I have barely responded to posts, and gave up when the laptop rebooted and erased the comments I did manage to make. I’m done. I can’t do this alone, not anymore. Also, I don’t want to always be the one asking for help–I may not be able to help, but I want to try.
I don’t know whether I will make every check-in, but I am not going to work straight through the day at the day job. I want/need to be in contact; I want/need to pay it forward, if there is any way I can do that.
Please go encourage the rest of the ROWers. They are a fantastic bunch of folks.