As I announced on Sunday, I joined NaNo this year. So far, I am finding it a fascinating experience. Two things have happened that I did not expect. My word count has gone up steadily from Day One. Yes, I know that 5 data points mean nothing, but I take comfort in the fact that the NaNo widget told me I would finish on February 1st on Day One, but told me today I would finish on January 30th.
However, far more exciting is my attitude. For several reasons, I was unable to write first thing this morning. I felt disappointed, but resigned, thinking that today might be the first day off, since I was so exhausted after the day job yesterday. To my surprise and delight, the words burned in my gut all morning, through committee meetings and space planning, until I got them out on the screen. I have not felt like this in years, and it is so very welcome.
Working through the emotions of the writing is difficult but liberating. I used to say in therapy years ago that the truth shall set you free, but first it will make you miserable. I find myself remembering things that happened, thinking at the time that things were the same in other families and houses down the block and across the street. It is when I look from the vantage point of being a parent myself that the sense of wrongness, of difference, is overwhelming.
I’m slightly under the weather this morning, so this will be a short report. I should make up for it at the next check-in.If you have a free moment, please go visit the other ROWers, whom you can find here.