I woke up Thursday morning with the feeling that I was letting time and goals slip through my fingers. While ROW80 is famous for allowing one to adjust one’s goals (thank goodness!), there comes a point at which I wonder what the heck I’m doing. The simple answer is that I’m trying to do too much. The good news is that I still want to “find” the time to write.
I do a lot of “shoulds.” I over-extend at the day job, so that I come home with a mush-brain at night, good for nothing but binge TV and knitting. Despite my recent sponsor post warning against the “I should have done more” syndrome, I have fallen into it, in both the day job and the writing sphere. Thursday morning, I realized how many plates I was juggling, and that I desperately needed to put some of them down.
After dropping out of an academic writing group and not joining a fiction critique group that was forming last week, I felt guiltily relieved. My muse is only peeking out of the corner, and I know that I must nurture and protect its space right now. Do you fall prey to the dreaded “should”? If so, how do you fight it?
My ROW80 update:
- Meditate for no less than ten minutes a day. Yes.
- Find gratitude for at least one thing every day. Yes.
- Return to the daily habit of at least 250 words a day. Not daily, but yes.
- Never sit when I can stand, never stand when I can pace. Stand for at least 5 minutes every hour; pace for at least 5 minutes every hour; walk for 5 minutes every 2 hours. Yes.
- Contact every extended family member on their birthday. Yes.
- Reply to comments on blogs within two days. Better.
More is getting done, and baby steps are coming back as habits. I’m happy to see some progress, and I’m not beating myself up for shortfalls. Please go encourage ROWers in these last few check-ins here.