It was a quiet Round Two for me. Work was busy, and life kept lobbing curve balls at me.
I learned how to meditate, really, rather than letting the slide show of everything I had to do when I “stopped being quiet” play through my vision. I learned to let thoughts slide off like rain on a treated windshield before they could gather and form into a thundercloud, casting a shadow over my peace.
In the last several weeks, I’ve added a handful of extremely simple yoga poses to the routine. After years of not moving because of pain, laziness, or generalized ennui, my body is starting to get ever so slightly more limber.
When I lower the bucket into the well, and no words come up, which has been stunningly often, I have read–nineteen full-length novels in this Round, not counting samples, and smaller pieces. Karen McFarland put it perfectly when she commented on my last check-in, ” For some reason, my mind is thirsty for words, so I feed it.” That is where I find myself now. At times, I find the words playing in the shadows, but they disappear when I look right at them, like an optical illusion. I’m not terribly worried yet. I have the feeling that clutching at them will have the same effect it did when I was an insecure twenty-something, asking for reassurances every minute and a half like a Weimaraner. “Do you still love me? Okay, umm, how about now? . . . Now?” It’s no surprise I didn’t have a lasting relationship until I was over 30. I think if I quiet my mind the words will become visible eventually.
Between Rounds, I have to travel for my job over the weekend. When I return, we are gathering our children, sons-in-law and any grandchildren of their blended families who can come to a rustic farmhouse in the Adirondacks for the week of the 4th. The priceless nature of time spent with family has been brought home forcibly to me, and I want to encourage the bonds that already exist among the grandchildren and their parents. It is a close-knit crowd, and I am thankful beyond the stars for it.
I hope you have a peaceful, word-full break, and look forward to catching up with all of you next Round. Give a last cheer to all those who made it to the finish line here