ROW80 and the Letter of Doom

Life took a sharp veer on Monday; I’m still a little shell-shocked, but the silver lining is starting to appear.  Several groups at the day job have been working for a couple of years now on market equity raises.  We’ve not gotten any raises, not even cost of living, for over four years; therefore, we had fallen pretty far behind our peers in the SEC. We finally got letters on Monday outlining the particular raise each of us would get.  Mine started out okay, got interesting in the middle where it stated the amount of the raise, and then did a real “psych” at the end, when it said that since my boss had given me “below average” for not publishing any articles in 2010, I would get zero. Nothing–not in 2011-12, not in 2012-2013. If I publish several articles in each of the next two years, I can ask again at the end of 2013-2014, but there is no guarantee there will be any money, since this raise is funded by a special one-time pocket of funds.I’d just written a post a few days ago how academic life was a surrogate mother, friend, and, dare I say, lover. I can only relate the feeling I had reading the letter to that of hearing my ex-husband say to the marriage counselor, indicating me with a jerk of his chin, “She’s not worth working for.”

Bummer, eh?  But that silver lining I mentioned–it’s the freedom that comes with realizing that the guy you’ve obsessed over all this time really isn’t all that into you, and you can be your own person again.  Yes, it hurts, like the devil.  But as my husband says (pardon his Anglo-Saxon), “I read just the other day that a**holes are great motivators.  Now go out there and get something that will really let you write.”

Health:  My cough is ever so slowly getting better, thank goodness. The new specs are helping with the computer posture, so my contortions are lessening.  I am confidently sailing past all the candy and sweet stuff at work; it’s really strange, but a sugar-free Lifesaver will satisfy my sweet tooth now.  Thanksgiving may be a bit of a challenge, but I am a slow eater, and my sister-in-law and I can yak for hours, so I may manage to keep consumption low.

Exercise: Still at 30 minutes; my sister-in-law is a Black Friday fiend shopper, so I suspect I will make up my whole week on Friday 🙂

Family:  Sunday night I talked to my dad, who actually brought up the social worker’s visit.  It was a little weird to have that conversation with him, since he rarely talks to me like I am an adult, but it was a nice change.

Today will be spent driving five hours to Boca Raton to pick up youngest, then back four hours to Sarasota, where my brother-in-law and his wife live.  My sister-in-law is one of the sweetest people I know, and she will pamper us all.

Friends: I have kept up with some of my friends.  I still have to work on commenting on blogs; I fulfill my sponsor responsibilities, but I don’t make to everyone else.

Writing: I posted a non-fiction excerpt as Six Sentence Sunday, then did a fiction excerpt on Monday.  Except for cathartic vituperation and job applications, I haven’t written anything since reading the letter of doom.  I hope to get a gratitude post done sometime Friday or Saturday.  The articles will take a back seat to job applications for a while, probably as long as the rest of the round, but I hope to keep the blogging going.

Day Job:  Ha.  See above.

So, all my lovely ROW80 compatriots, have a very lovely rest of the week.  Those of you in the U.S., enjoy your Thanksgiving holiday with your loved ones.  All of you not in lands of turkey holidays, have a wonderful rest of the week and week-end. Please go encourage the rest of the ROWers here.